Vegas Fatty

I leave for Vegas on Saturday. I am super excited and at the same time....I'm sad.  Why am I sad.  Because I didn't lose the weight I was supposed to when I booked this trip.  So I won't be walking around in my trampy clothes I planned on wearing (hey, it's Vegas that's what people do there....LOL). 

I vow this will be the last event that I look for clothes that FIT instead of clothes that are hot, cute, sassy.  I miss the days of grabbing something off the rack and not even bothering to try it on. 

Now, I have to try on everything....and I'm buying sizes I never thought I'd buy.....

A friend posted a picture of me from their wedding reception.....I look like....someone I never thought I'd look like.

I oftern wonder if people who haven't seen me in a while think....."she needs to put down the sandwiches".....

174.8 the scale said this morning...10 years ago I was in a size 4......today.....let's just say it's not a size 4....it's not even single digits.

I'm getting old; I can't eat like I used to and it's time for me to face that reality.

I can't eat fast food for 3 meals and expect the scale to not TIP!!

My self-esteem is at a low....a very low low.....

I do not want to be the fat aunt at my niece's wedding next year; nor do I want to be the cousin's fat wife at my DH's cousin's wedding next month. 

My head is bouncing off the wall; and instead of blood there is french fries pouring out of my head. 

What is more important - french fries or health?  Cookies or self-esteem?  Chips or my DH's being proud of his hot wife on his arm?

The time is now......

Why?

Do I love cookies so much?  Do they make a healthy cookie?

I was a lazy girl this weekend.  Didn't run or do sit-ups.

We went to see a local city fireworks show last night.  That combined with running my feet off at my restaurant job made for a VERY tired girl. Very tired girl = not getting up to run this morning.... :(

But I did some sit-ups and leg lifts.  So that's something I guess.

Weight this morning 172.2

Happy Monday everyone. 

And the scale says

173.6...which really isn't too horrible (as compared to yesterday) because I ate a bunch of snack stuff at book club yesterday.  I am seriously the most horrible book club person; I rarely read the book....maybe I'll shock everyone and read the book this time....we shall see! LOL

I did do my sit-ups this morning.  Yeah me! :)

A friend of mine ran 13 miles on Sunday.....he's the one I'm running the Half Marathon with.  I have to set-up my game because I can't have him kicking my butt in October!! 

Well I couldn't find my old blog....

So I started a new one!

I am signed up for the Detroit Free Press Half Marathon once again! WOO HOO! 

Per usual I have barely trained to date BUT I have "run" today and yesterday morning.  I say "run" because it was the lamest running ever BUT I got out there so that's good. 

My weight is out of control!!  I'm fat and old....when the hell did that happen?  It's crazy.

Part of the reason I laced up the running shoes is because of the many events coming up....

• Going to a Scentsy Convention in July
• Signed up for Warrior Dash at the end of July...not sure if I'm going to do that as the people I signed up with have bailed for various reasons.  I'll get back to you on that one.
• Going to VEGAS in August; Hubs 40th birthday and a good friend's 30th birthday!
• Hub's cousin in getting married in September and I WILL NOT be the fattest relative there.  I WILL NOT!!
• Niece is getting married September of next year!

My closet is full of super cute stuff that I can not wear and it makes me sad!  :(

Back to the fat & old; I am 5 ft 6 inches and I weigh.....173.4 this morning!!!  HOLY FAT OLD LADY BATMAN!!

But I ran this morning AND I'm going to do sit-ups everyday.  It's something; it's a start.

I went to a 31 meeting yesterday.  One of the directors read a quote that I really liked - "If you want something you've never had you have do something you've never done".

I want to finish my 1/2 marathon in a decent time....so I have to train!! (something I've never really done for the others I've done).  It's crazy that I've done 4 half marathons and 1 whole marathon and I've never really done serious training. 

I want to LOSE THIS STOMACH; so I have to work out, stop snacking, stop eating McDonald's for breakfast.

CHA CHA CHANGES.....It's time.  And I'm ready!!